Hard to Say Goodbye

When we get through one trial it seems like another one comes our way. This last year has definitely had its trials. When we look around and see what others are facing, our troubles dont look so big any more.


Now that my husband and I have been through Covid, the rest of the family has caught it. Two of my sisters and one of their husbands have it. My daughter and grandson just got over the stomach flu. I noticed others are going through some sort of illness or another.


I wander when is all this suffering going to end. When is God going to end all of our heartaches and sicknesses. I guess I already know the answer. I know that the Lord Jesus is coming back soon. It is then that we will suffer no more.

The Bible tells in the book of Revelation that when we get to Heaven we will have no more pain. We will have no more crying, no more tears. The former life will be over and we will have a new life, a new body. There will be no more night, cause God will light the city.
God will freely give eternal life to those that believe in him. John 3:16 says that God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life.


Our job as Christians should be to tell others about Jesus. Why? Jesus said I am the way, the truth, the life, no man may come to the Father but by him. Salvation is a free gift to anyone who believes in the Lord, but they must receive it. They must trust in Jesus as their Lord and Savior.


Accepting Christ means to worship him, serve him, trust him and love him. Loving Christ means to love others too. Doing our best to live our life for others and not just ourselves. See Jesus died on the cross for our sins. He sacrificed himself for others, So they could receive eternal life through him. Jesus didn’t remain in the grave. He arose victorious. He lives in Heaven. He sits on the throne, on the right side of the Father. We have only a short time on earth to make a difference.


My brother in law, Jerry recently passed away from Covid. He definitely made a mark on this world. He was a preacher, a pastor, a husband, father, grandfather, and friend. People liked him because he stood up for what was right. He left a godly legacy. I considered him my spiritual leader. I relied on him to give me answers, especially about what we were all going through with this pandemic, this trial in our lives. I guess I wanted to be more like him.

Jerry said not too long ago. “When I die dont mourn for me.. I know where I’m going.” He had confidence in his belief in Jesus Christ.. Jerry and I were a lot alike. We were both bold when it came to our beliefs and sometimes didn’t see eye to eye on some things.


He loved his family and never for got to show them how much they meant to him. He often encouraged me to keep the faith, and to study the scriptures. I never had the chance to thank him for his Godly leadership and guidance. He helped me when I was in a dark place in my life. He showed me the correct way to go, to live. He meant a lot to me and my family. I wish that I could have another day to talk to him, to thank them.


Laying your loved one to rest is one of the hardest things you’ll ever have to face. I didn’t feel like I would make it through the day. I prayed that the Lord Jesus would give me comfort and strength to make it . My heart hurt and his passing was a huge loss to my family. I grieve for our loss and my sister’s heartache and sadness that she faces.
Today in my hospital orientation class, we talked about grief. People go through different stages of grief. There is one thing that isn’t talked about is time.


You can never get back that time you had with your loved ones. You can never redo the times you share with others. You can never unsay things that shouldn’t be said. So make sure you tell others how much you care about them. Say things that are good not evil. Show them that you love them, because when they die, you will never get that time back. You will regret those lost moments. Moments you should have said you were sorry. Moments you should have asked for forgiveness. Moments that you told them how much they mean to you.


I know time goes on. Life goes on and we have to try to live our lives without the sorrow and regrets. This time used to be the happiest time of our lives. I know Christmas will never be the same again with his passing so close to it. I thought I was over it. I will start to cry when I least expect to. I was in class and saw a picture of a Kennedy wound (wound that appears on someone in their last stages of life). Out of nowhere it hit me hard. I guess the thought of someone dying, it hit closer to home this time.

As a nurse, I’ve been around plenty of people in their last stages of life. I’ve had to call the family in to say their last goodbyes but sorry to say it starts to become part of the job. Of course I feel compassion for their loss and try to show them some love. I offer words of comfort to try to help ease their pain. It is usually easier when they are Christians. They find comfort in knowing that their loved one is going to a better place. They will spend eternity with Jesus Christ and they will see them again one day.

About Tracy K

I am a born again believer who has taught Sunday School, Women's Meetings and written blogs and books for the purpose of the ministry. My sole purpose is to spread the gospel of Jesus Christ. I believe Jesus, the son of God, died on a cross for the sins of the whole world. I believe he arose after three days and now sits on the right side of God in Heaven. I believe Jesus Christ is the only way of salvation. Without Jesus, there is no remissions of sins:
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