Have You Left Jesus

If you haven’t studied the Bible like you use to. If you haven’t attended church regularly. If you haven’t prayed like you use to, than you are backsliding. Do you feel close to God?

Today I ran across this post, “Have You Left Jesus”. To some degree, yes. I haven’t read my Bible, prayed, worshipped like I should have. I’ve tried but felt like a dark cloud overshadowing me.

See over the last couple of years, I have been struggling with my Christian walk with the Lord. I have been dealing with grief and Depression. Some of it has been due to losing a close family member. I felt grieved, depressed, and oppressed. See Satan wants us depressed, oppressed, burdened, weighed down. He wants to keep a dark cloud over us so we won’t do God’s will. We must keep fighting. We must fight for our Christian walk. We are in a battle! With God, we can overcome and win the battle!

Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: – Ephesians 6:11-17.

Jesus said he would never leave us or forsake us ( Hebrews 13:5). Pray, pray often and let the Lord guide you in your life.

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Have Integrity

Integrity is the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.

Integrity should guide what we do or say in this life. Be honest, tell the truth. Show respect to authority and others you come into contact with. Be trustworthy, reliable and faithful to others including employers. Have some responsibility to others. Keep your promises, keep commitments made.

Strive to be a servant of God. Be willing to help others; many have needs that we can assist them with. Do good even when noone is watching. Anything you do, do it for the Lord. Do your best without grudging. Be thankful!

Joseph was a man of God that showed great integrity. Genesis 37 tells us that even though Joseph was sold into slavery by his brothers, he had compassion for them. Later on Pharaoh made him ruler over the land of Egypt. During the famine, Joseph could have thrown his brothers in jail, but he took care of them and his father (Genesis 47:11,12).

Psalm 25:21- Integrity comes from knowledge and wisdom. Psalm 25:21-Let integrity and uprightness preserve me; for I wait on thee. Job had integrity despitewhat he list and went through- Let me be weighed in an even balance that God may know mine integrity (Job 31:6).

God knows your integrity and will reward you for having it. He rewarded Joseph and Job. Let the Holy Spirit always guide you in whatever you do. Pray each day that God would lead you and guide in your life.

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Changes Are Not Always Good

As I sit here waiting for my food order at my favorite Chinese restaurant I ponder what life holds. I’ve reached my 50’s now and wander where time has gone. I look around and see all the young people, that are now adults, that I watched when they were kids. I see them having their own families and children and living productive lives.

Many people that had an impact on my life when I was growing up, including family members are now deceased. Several aunts and uncles, my brother in law, even people I went to school with are no longer with us. It saddens me but also gives me a different perspective on life.

Many changes are happening around me. Signs of the Lords return are happening.  Israeli Jews have found a red heifer that can be sacrificed in order to cleanse the new temple. Plans are underway for the rebuilding of the temple.  They believe the temple will usher in the return of the messiah. They don’t believe that Jesus was God’s son.

This temple is not a good thing to the world. It will be the beginning of the tribulation period when the antichrist begins his short reign on this earth. To the Christian people,  it will mean that Jesus Christ will gather his people together in Heaven to wait out the terrible tribulation period that will take place on this earth. 

Life is short! We should never take anything or anyone for granted. Now we must focus our attention on spreading the gospel while we still can. We don’t know what the future will bring on this earth.  We just have to trust in Jesus to carry us through what is coming. I believe he will help us, because we are his people!

We are waiting for the Lord to rapture the church out of this world. The rapture should take place very soon. All we have to do is look around. So many things happening in this world that are ungodly.

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Life is Short

I’ve reached my 50’s now and wander where time has gone. I look around and see all the young people, that are now adults, that I watched when they were kids. I see them having their own families and children and living productive lives.

Many people that had an impact on my life when I was growing up, including family members are now deceased. Several aunts and uncles, my brother in law, even people I went to school with are no longer with us. It saddens me but also gives me a different perspective on life.

Many changes are happening around me. Signs of the Lords return are happening.  Israeli Jews have found a red heifer that can be sacrificed in order to cleanse the new temple. Plans are underway for the rebuilding of the temple.  They believe the temple will usher in the return of the messiah. They don’t believe that Jesus was God’s son.

This temple is not a good thing to the world. It will be the beginning of the tribulation period when the antichrist begins his short reign on this earth. To the Christian people,  it will mean that Jesus Christ will gather his people together in Heaven to wait out the terrible tribulation period that will take place on this earth. 

Life is short! We should never take anything or anyone for granted. Now we must focus our attention on spreading the gospel while we still can. We don’t know what the future will bring on this earth.  We just have to trust in Jesus to carry us through what is coming. I believe he will help us, because we are his people!

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God helps us Through our Fears

It is so easy to fear death when you think you have cancer or some other illness that usually doesn’t have a good outcome.  As a nurse, I’ve taken care of people who were dying or diagnosed with a life changing prognosis.  It was heartbreaking, but some actually inspired me because they didn’t have any fear. They were ready to face whatever God had in store for them, whether death or devine healing. I’ve sat there trying to encourage them with comforting words, but they lift me up instead with their faith. Now I stand and wait for results that might change my life. Test will soon reveal whether I have thyroid cancer and/or something else. My doctor sent me for an ultrasound and it showed nodules on my thyroid, which could be cancerous. When I was told I would have to go for a biopsy, I could barely sleep. Its hard to focus on anything else, my mind keeps going back to thoughts of my death. I know it sounds morbid but I’m sure others feel the same way when they find out terrible news about their health. 

You start to analyze your life, what you did in your past. Could I have made better choices. Life is a vapor. Cherish it!   I wish I could go back and undo some things I did. I wish I could have lived a better life as a Christian. I miss the times when my kids were little.  We would go shopping together,  go on vacations, have holidays together.  Time is special, I miss those precious moments. My husband,  Chris and I were talking about the struggles we’ve faced together. We’ve been married for 30 years. We’ve had good times,  bad times,  and times to remember.  Life wouldn’t be the same without each other. I know I love him more today than I did when we first got together.  He has been someone I can rely on, someone that has helped me in my darkest hours of my life. But, Chris can’t always be with me. There is one that has always been there with me. Jesus has comforted me when noone else could. He was there when I went in for surgery. He was there when I was born, and he will be there when I pass from this life. Jesus knows everything about me. He knows my thoughts,  my secrets,  my fears. He has given me the peace to go on in my life. He’s forgiven me for my sins. Loved me when I was unlovable.  He has strengthened me when I was weak. Healed me when I was sick. And listened to me when I needed a friend. He said he will never leave me or forsake me. Friends come and go. Family can turn their back on you, but Jesus will never hurt you.

If you dont know Jesus,  you dont know true peace or love. He can give you a happiness that you have never known. He is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

Ask Jesus into your heart and life. He

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Miracles of Faith

God is still in the miracle working business.  The thing about miracles is that you have to have faith that God can and will give us the desires of our heart. We just have to have faith that he is able. Faith is believing before seeing. We must look ahead and see that anything is possible.  God can do all things.

We as humans can only see things happening with our eyes, but God can prepare a way before it happens. He knows what we need before we do. We can’t even imagine what our Heavenly Father does for us. He prepared for us a safe dwelling place before we were even born. Gods Holy Word says, For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. – Psalm 139:13. 


We worry about things in this life that we cannot control,  but God has control of our lives, of everything.  It is sad that we dont fully trust that he is able to protect us and perform those miracles everyday. Yes miracles happen everyday. They happen when we sleep; when we awaken, when we are sick; when we are sad.


Miracles are everywhere if we would only open our eyes. A baby being born is a miracle, because God formed that baby in the womb ( Isaiah 44:2). Miracles happen when a dying man recovers from his sickness. Sometimes miracles happen in the heart when a life is changed.  A redeemed soul from Hell to God’s wonderful kingdom of salvation is one of the greatest miracles. 

A miracle can be a requested answered prayer. Sometimes God might answer your request with a no, because he knows what is best for you. God loves you and always wants what is best for you. See God sees the bigger picture. He knows the desires of your heart and he can give you what you ask for. Just don’t forget to ask that God’s will be done, not your will but his. Faith makes miracles possible.

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Renew A Better Spirit in Me Lord

The last few months have been a struggle. We have been going through a renewal period in our lives that I didn’t understand at first. Looking back I see that we all need that that time of renewal, reflection on our lives. What can we do to be not only a better person but better Christian.

Sometimes it becomes a ritual of doing the same thing over and over again. We think we have mastered our Christian walk and that we dont need anything to change. It is then that we need the change the most. Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. – Psalm 51:10-12

This is a song by Hillsong that blessed my heart today. It shows the brokenness of a person who knows they need that renewed spirit in their lives.

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

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Hard to Say Goodbye

When we get through one trial it seems like another one comes our way. This last year has definitely had its trials. When we look around and see what others are facing, our troubles dont look so big any more.


Now that my husband and I have been through Covid, the rest of the family has caught it. Two of my sisters and one of their husbands have it. My daughter and grandson just got over the stomach flu. I noticed others are going through some sort of illness or another.


I wander when is all this suffering going to end. When is God going to end all of our heartaches and sicknesses. I guess I already know the answer. I know that the Lord Jesus is coming back soon. It is then that we will suffer no more.

The Bible tells in the book of Revelation that when we get to Heaven we will have no more pain. We will have no more crying, no more tears. The former life will be over and we will have a new life, a new body. There will be no more night, cause God will light the city.
God will freely give eternal life to those that believe in him. John 3:16 says that God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believeth in him shall not perish but have eternal life.


Our job as Christians should be to tell others about Jesus. Why? Jesus said I am the way, the truth, the life, no man may come to the Father but by him. Salvation is a free gift to anyone who believes in the Lord, but they must receive it. They must trust in Jesus as their Lord and Savior.


Accepting Christ means to worship him, serve him, trust him and love him. Loving Christ means to love others too. Doing our best to live our life for others and not just ourselves. See Jesus died on the cross for our sins. He sacrificed himself for others, So they could receive eternal life through him. Jesus didn’t remain in the grave. He arose victorious. He lives in Heaven. He sits on the throne, on the right side of the Father. We have only a short time on earth to make a difference.


My brother in law, Jerry recently passed away from Covid. He definitely made a mark on this world. He was a preacher, a pastor, a husband, father, grandfather, and friend. People liked him because he stood up for what was right. He left a godly legacy. I considered him my spiritual leader. I relied on him to give me answers, especially about what we were all going through with this pandemic, this trial in our lives. I guess I wanted to be more like him.

Jerry said not too long ago. “When I die dont mourn for me.. I know where I’m going.” He had confidence in his belief in Jesus Christ.. Jerry and I were a lot alike. We were both bold when it came to our beliefs and sometimes didn’t see eye to eye on some things.


He loved his family and never for got to show them how much they meant to him. He often encouraged me to keep the faith, and to study the scriptures. I never had the chance to thank him for his Godly leadership and guidance. He helped me when I was in a dark place in my life. He showed me the correct way to go, to live. He meant a lot to me and my family. I wish that I could have another day to talk to him, to thank them.


Laying your loved one to rest is one of the hardest things you’ll ever have to face. I didn’t feel like I would make it through the day. I prayed that the Lord Jesus would give me comfort and strength to make it . My heart hurt and his passing was a huge loss to my family. I grieve for our loss and my sister’s heartache and sadness that she faces.
Today in my hospital orientation class, we talked about grief. People go through different stages of grief. There is one thing that isn’t talked about is time.


You can never get back that time you had with your loved ones. You can never redo the times you share with others. You can never unsay things that shouldn’t be said. So make sure you tell others how much you care about them. Say things that are good not evil. Show them that you love them, because when they die, you will never get that time back. You will regret those lost moments. Moments you should have said you were sorry. Moments you should have asked for forgiveness. Moments that you told them how much they mean to you.


I know time goes on. Life goes on and we have to try to live our lives without the sorrow and regrets. This time used to be the happiest time of our lives. I know Christmas will never be the same again with his passing so close to it. I thought I was over it. I will start to cry when I least expect to. I was in class and saw a picture of a Kennedy wound (wound that appears on someone in their last stages of life). Out of nowhere it hit me hard. I guess the thought of someone dying, it hit closer to home this time.

As a nurse, I’ve been around plenty of people in their last stages of life. I’ve had to call the family in to say their last goodbyes but sorry to say it starts to become part of the job. Of course I feel compassion for their loss and try to show them some love. I offer words of comfort to try to help ease their pain. It is usually easier when they are Christians. They find comfort in knowing that their loved one is going to a better place. They will spend eternity with Jesus Christ and they will see them again one day.

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You Can Rely on Jesus

It is so easy to fear death when you think you have cancer or some other illness that usually doesn’t have a good outcome. As a nurse, I’ve taken care of people who were dying or diagnosed with a life changing prognosis. It was heartbreaking, but some gave me a happy heart, they inspired me because they didn’t have any fear. They were ready to face whatever God had in store for them, whether death or devine healing. I’ve sat there trying to encourage them with comforting words, but they lift me up instead with their faith.
Now I stand and wait for results that might change my life. Test will soon reveal whether I have thyroid cancer and/or something else. My doctor sent me for an ultrasound and it showed nodules on my thyroid, which could be cancerous.


When I was told I would have to go for a biopsy, I could barely sleep. Its hard to focus on anything else, my mind keeps going back to thoughts of my death. I know it sounds morbid but I’m sure others feel the same way when they find out terrible news about their health.
You start to analyze your life, what you did in your past. Could I have made better choices. Life is a vapor. Cherish it!


I wish I could go back and undo some things I did. I wish I could have lived a better life as a Christian. I miss the times when my kids were little. We would go shopping together, go on vacations, have holidays together. Time is special, I miss those precious moments. My husband, Chris and I were talking about the struggles we’ve faced together. We’ve been married for 30 years. We’ve had good times, bad times, and times to remember. Life wouldn’t be the same without each other. I know I love him more today than I did when we first got together. He has been someone I can rely on, someone that has helped me in my darkest hours of my life.


But, Chris can’t always be with me. There is one that has always been there. Jesus has comforted me when noone else could. See he knows everything about me. He knows my thoughts, my secrets, my fears. He has given me the peace to go on in my life. He’s forgiven me for my sins. Loved me when I was unlovable. He has strengthened me when I was weak. Healed me when I was sick. And listened to me when I needed a friend.
If you dont know Jesus, you dont know true peace or love. He can give you a happiness that you have never known. He is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother. He is someone we can always rely on. He has never let me down because he loves me despite my sins, insecurities, failures.

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Poem: The Wedding

The Wedding Day is quickly approaching,
To Celebrate a new bride and groom.
Invitations have been sent out,
Free to attend with plenty of room.

The stage is set with decorations and flowers,
Many new faces and people to meet.
Many are dressed in their very best.
Food is prepared and ready to eat.

Harps and organ music fills the air.
Preparations are already underway,
For the wedding of God’s son.
A Heavenly atmosphere fills the day.

Hearts are ready and prepared!
Peace and Love is in the Air. 
Smiles and laughter can be heard. 
Wedding party in formal wear.

The groom has comforted his bride in time of sorrow,
He has embraced her and shared her tears,
For he has spent many days by her side,
Helping her through her trials and fears.

The Wedding is drawing close.
The Groom is waiting patiently on his bride.
Rings have been chosen for each hand.
They will live eternally by God’s side.

A union of love that will never end.
A kingdom with streets of pure gold. 
With Jesus our Lord and forever friend.
Happiness forever, never growing old.

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